Monday, August 15, 2011

Driven insane by grief......

Just as I was preparing to feed my babies, my maid murmured nonchalantly, "Mom, ch'gai mook sa-aat s'lup hai-ee literally translated ...Mom, dog face pretty died already."

Ain't this a pitiful sight? Died with her eyes opened!

Holding fervently to Chanel with tears flowing like the waterfall, I cried my heart out. What could have been the cause of her death? She was actively running about and horse-fighting as usual with Chenille yesterday while I was grooming Cuddles, Crunchy, Crimi, Capri, Chavez & Cookies! She even savoured a hearty meal last night with no indication or symptom whatsoever of illness!! She was whimpering when Crimi snapped at her earlier yesterday morning though, but I doubt that could have been the cause........

How could she have left just like that! She had been my favourite being the prettier of the two! Though born several hours later than Chenille, she had her eyes opened first.....also first to take a bold step towards me. She hardly whined making her all the more adorable. She was such a beauty! Never had I, through my years of running the pet shop, seen one more beautiful... and never had I shed so much tears over a dead puppy....

I hate and curse myself for wishing that it had not been Chanel which died..... Seeing Chenille now reminds me so much of Chanel that tears keep welling up in my eyes. I just couldn't wait to send Chenille off to my sis-in-law Siew Hian incidentally they share the same birthday of the month and as if I've telepathic powers, my sis-in law called up just as I was blogging!


Photos taken on 03/08/11 - 4 weeks old .............. Chenille ......Chanel
Why has God got to be so cruel to me and to Chanel?? I just can't get over the shock...the sudden death........that's precisely why it's heart wrenching......